I have been deliberating if I should become a college student again. Yep, classes, homework, study groups, group projects, essays, mid terms, finals, etc. It would be a whole big thing for me. I realize that it would be kind of interesting to see how I handle being thrust back into that kind of social and educational situation… but in the hopes of being a little optimistic, wouldn’t be just a little bit fun? I would like to think so. Makes me feel young again. {See how I try and make my self feel like I am old, when in reality I am only 25. God Stephanie, get over yourself.}

     As much as I know it would be work and I would have to spend a significant amount of time doing this, I can also see it as being kind of a good thing. I have always wanted to go back to school. I would probably meet some interesting people, and I would definitely learn something. Not to mention, it would be great if Ben joined me at some point. We both could use some brushing up on our educational background.

     Now, do I fear that I will fall flat on my face? Yep! Do I think that I will succeed right off the bat? NO! But, will I think it’s all worth it in the end? Definitely! So, how does one go about all this? Well I have already enrolled at Los Medanos College and I officially have a registration date. Hopefully not all the classes are taken by then, but I will just go with the flow as best as I can. Then the even bigger dilemma…. actually going to class.

     I am planning on starting off with just one class to see how it goes. I realize if I try to get a degree that way it will take me a billion years, but so be it! If it takes me till I am 45 to get a degree, that’s ok! I know some people can run through it like it’s nothing and some people know exactly what they want to do, but that is just not me. I am lost in the abyss. I know not my destination, just yet. All I do know is I want something… anything… to get me a degree. I know it’s going to take time and hard work and focus. I know by the grace of God with the love and support of my husband and family I will get there… some day.

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