My “Bucket List” Item

If anyone knows me, they know that back in high school I created something of a “bucket list”. However, my list was called “Things to do before I die” and I still have my original copy in my wallet to this day. It has all the regular things like getting a tattoo, go bungee jumping, get married to the love of my life, etc. One of the things on that list was getting my bachelors degree. I was blessed enough to go to CSU Chico and had my college experience for about three years before I returned home, no degree in hand.


Since then I have created a beautiful life with the man (and now husband) of my dreams. We have a home of our own, two beautiful children, and to be frank I thought that my hope of that degree was long gone. When I say long gone, I felt like it would take a lifetime to accomplish because I would lose out on all the classes I had completed before I stopped and I thought that I would have to go to a community college to start all over. After a lot of research and phone calls, I had finally been able to submit my inquiry with CSU Chico to see about returning to finish what I started. They have a new distance and online program available with a limited three degree options, but it is something I was greatly interested in.


Long story short… I am going to go back to get my degree. This time it will be sans student loans (gonna pay cash this time around, don’t want to saddle myself or my family with more debt) and I will have a direction to go in (i.e. a major, I went through about 30 last time). I have been in contact with Admissions and the Registrar and I am looking forward to going back. I have a lot to work toward, but I am ready for it and I am determined. Mr. G has been super supportive too. I couldn’t ask for a better husband really. God blessed me there for sure. He is going to help with the kids while I am doing homework, research, and keeping up with course work so I can get the degree that I have longed to have since I was 18.


World be ready, in a few years (yes, I know it’s going to take me some time) I am going to be armed with a degree. I will be a force to be reckoned with and I couldn’t be more excited about it.


Time For A Change

Things have been all over the place lately. I have been allowing the boys to get the best of me to be honest. It’s not the most fun to admit that, but it’s true. I have become overwhelmed with breast feeding, diaper changes, Disney movies, toddler tantrums, and all that fun crap. I am ashamed that I have allowed it to dictate my feelings. Sometimes it gets me in a funk where I just don’t want to leave the house. I try to “excuse” it away by thinking that it’s too hard, it will take forever to get where we are going then it will be a nightmare full of fits and screams, or I just don’t have the energy. It’s sad and lonely to be alone all the time. I love my boys and their smiles, giggles, hugs, kisses, and all the beautiful moments that being a Stay At Home Mom provides me. I just have found that I need some time that will allow me some peace in my riddled with legos, hectic world.


My 27th birthday is right around the corner. It scares me that I am just a few years to 30 (but, for everyone who matters I will always remain 29, hehe). I have been thoroughly blessed with a wonderful husband, beautiful children, a fantastic support system, but nothing for me… me as an individual. I get so absorbed with the constant growing life around me that I forget that I have interests, goals, things that make me happy. My husband asked me what I wanted to achieve before I am 28. After hearing the question, I had to really stop and think… because I had never thought about it at all. Didn’t even cross my mind to have a goal or annual things to accomplish. So, I started.


This year I want to mix things up a little bit for myself. I want to get me and my boys out there. I want to explore new friendships, chase new opportunities, and see what fun I can find before I am 28. These are some of the things that I am going to start looking into:

1) We have set some roots out in our new home. I love the city, I love our neighborhood, I love it all… Now, to familiarize myself with it. I want to take drives around the area and learn what my city and the neighboring cities have to offer. I want to picnic at parks, browse local museums, and figure out where the local library is. I want to make this city our home and find the history behind it all.

2) I want to make some mommy friends. I want my kids to be more socialized. I want them to know that they can make local friends and have play dates and enjoy the company of someone other than Mom. As much as I enjoy keeping them all to myself I think this will benefit both of us. They will learn to associate with other children appropriately and I will be able to meet other moms going through the same trials and tribulations that I am. It will also be nice to meet the parents of the kids that my children will likely be going to school with.

3) I want to take back some “me” time. My husband offers it, I should be able to take the time to enjoy something for myself. If that means blogging in the evening, great. If that means taking some time to go for a jog/run in the early evening, even better. Just do something for myself.

4) Go to Weight Watchers. Not to lose weight, but to get healthy again. I am tired of always feeling gross because of what I am eating or drinking. I want to feel good about everything that is going on in my life, even the stuff I am putting in my mouth.

5) I want to run a 5K. I used to do them no problem, now it’s been at least a year and a half since I last ran a few miles. I want to get back in running condition and do it.

6)I want to start a group of my own. An interest group. Something that will get me and other people active. It’s an added bonus if it’s something new. Like learn how to knit, start a bunco group, begin a recipe exchange, etc. It just will get me working on something that will make me satisfied with something that I want to do.


This is just something that will get me going. Nothing too overwhelming. I want something to get me started so I don’t feel I will automatically fail. I gotta start somewhere, because I am in desperate need of a change.